Did you ever think about killing yourself?
Yes, many times… because I don´t worship this existence.
So therefore it´s the… it´s a driving force for me… is to die.
It´s the only power I can get, you know, from… the only reason why I´m still here is because I want to die in a certain way.
And I want to achieve some things.
I wouldn´t dare to die with a weak soul, I wouldn´t dare to die with a human goodness or a human light in my mind.
It´s just that I want to clean my soul a little bit from the shit here, so…